Relationships aren’t easy, and I think as we grow older it gets a little harder, more complicated. This can apply to both romantic relationships and friendships, I’ve had to say “goodbye” to both more than I care to admit. And even when you’re ready, it’s seldom easy to let go. But when you do, you and/or the other person involved can become all that you are meant to be. To let go is not to care for, but to care about. To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive. To let go is not to deny, but to accept. To let go is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future. I’ve been single since Spring of 2014 and when I made the choice to not go back to online dating, I made the choice to get to know myself more personally, to find out what really makes me tick. I wanted to dissect myself, so-to-speak, and find out what really lies within, what causes me to open-up and/or shut-down. I’m definitely not done growing, learning or living, I suppose that will never come to an end, but I think my journey may be easier if I understand myself and all the millions of little thoughts and emotions inside of me just a wee bit better. I have learned, and probably still learning to a small degree, to let go of expectations; as Shakespeare put it – “expectation is the root of all heartache”. When you let go of expectations (from others, always hold high expectations for yourself), you become free to appreciate things for what they are instead of what you wish they were. I have so much enjoyed these last six years as a single lady, I’ve pondered going back out on the dating scene, but the thought of it quickly leaves me feeling exhausted and uninspired. I’m actually REALLY okay with being single; but if the right person walked into my life, I would also certainly be open to finding love once again.
